Destiny

today i went to the institute of mental health.my cip group members are adi,zah,nad,jaron,minsan,zhanwei,garret,leslie and chuankai.haha..we went with minhui's group(minhui,xiaoxuan,elaine,tiffany,peiyun) and 8co sec2 members.the cip was a very meaningful one althought i got some shocking experience over there.one of the woman patient over there kissed me on my hand.when minhui was talking to her,she suddenly came over to me and hold on to my hands.she said a lot of things to me,but i only heard some.she said 'ni hen cute,wo hen xi huan ni'.i was so shocked.she hold on to my hand and minhui was helping me to remove her hand from mine.i tried to move away but the patient held even tighter later.i was quite afraid.in the end , i managed to escape from that.haha.i was so scared and i went to hide behind the boys.haha.another one was that when i hold hands with her so as to dance with her,she said that i looked like her daughter and she told a volunteer over there that i am her daughter.haha.
although these were so shocking,i felt sad for the patients over there.they must have a unhappy past which resulted them in this state.they were so happy when they see the tibits on the table.their smiles on their face make my heart melt.we sang songs for them,eg 'the more we get together','my bonnie lies over the ocean','if you are happy and you know','bumble bee' and 'yue laing dai biao wo de xin'.before i went to this trip,i felt nothing and i was not worried.but after i came out from the ward,i was quite shock and scared.haha.so weird.in two weeks time, my group will be going there again to do our cip:)

after cip,i went to arina house,then to changi hospital,to see my brother's godma mum.she's 95 years old already.however,she's suffering in the hospital because her foot was rotting.her blood could not flow in her leg's blood vessel.hence,her foot was blackish in colour.when i went to see her, she was saying that she is in pain.this kink of case,the doctor said that she was supposed to cut off her foot from her left leg.due to that she have a weak heart,she will not be able to withstand thte operation.the operation may fail easily.so,now what she can do is to wait and die.when all of us were leaving the hospital,she said 'gam xia'(thankyou) to each of us.she was crying.then,my yima and i cried too.i felt so lost and sad suddenly.death is so scary and unpredictable.you will never knows what will happen tomorrow or even the future.what will happen when i am old?i thin i will rather die peacefully,than to have a lot of sickness or being forced to live in the hospital for long term basis.:)